You inspired me

Sometimes i been wondered, thinking and considering...
What i done,did and will do is it really necessary?
After reading your blog, it reminds me again...

Though its been a little late, but i want to respond back to you too...
Though i might not felt the same as you, but sometimes i cant denied that i do enjoy the time we have been spent together...
Though we become friend not long ago, but its our interaction that bonds us to be good friends...

Perhaps i should said that i already considered you as one of my best friend.
Its not time that measures depth of a relationship..
Its the feeling that bond us together...
The way we talked and shared our studies, gossip and problems...
Perhaps that what makes you stand out among other friend of mine...

But i know clearly what feeling that you're giving me.
It differ from her.
I wished to care,protect and share my problems with her.
But with you, i wished you to motivate, challenge and make me laugh.
Perhaps we should said that a friendship do differ from a relationship.
We both know that i love her a lot.
But we also know that i'm always risking myself hurting her.
I really appreciate the way you motivated me to study and revise.
Or can said that, i always hope there will be someone i can chat with when i feel bored.
I don't like the feeling of lonely. Pls dont come find me...

I never avoids you on purpose...
But we know clearly that i have a new responsibility and obligation,
that i must carry on.

Perhaps all the blames should on me alone...
The way i approaching and treating people is a bit extraordinary,
I may look humorous, i may do silly things
But i do treat my friend with heart,
I'm not a two-face people and i dont like to keep things in heart.
I always do things the way i liked...
That's me.

I guessed it should be clearer now though.
And you really inspired me of what she failed to.

I did it again...

I did it again...
Yesterday night, she cried again.
Sigh..
Let me count.
I think this is the 4th times i make her cried ( for this short period of time together, i think she cried about 5 times)

First time she cried because i was flew to Thailand for a trip.
To be frank, i didn't mean to send a touching msg to make her cry purposely.
I'm just expressing my feeling.
When we having a phone conversation at airport, she cried.
She really made me having a heavy heart to go there( though i was away for 6days only)
It was the first time i actually felt that someone really care about me.
If I'm going to leave this world at anytime,
i know that there will be at least 4ppl crying for me ( my family member and her)

The second time i saw her crying was the time i driving her back to KL from Ipoh,
Back then, she was sharing her past experience with me.
She cried when mentioning about her daddy's incident.
I was driving that time on highway and she was crying...
What can i do?
All i can was just using my left hand to mop away her tears...
and then grabbed her hand,"I'm here with you now"
I really meant it.

The third and the fourth time, she was crying over the phone again.
And due to the same problem and same person.
I promised that i will nvr do it again.
Guess what, i actually felt happy that you had such reaction...
Not that i'm a physco or what,
I just felt that you cared me so much...
I really appreciate the moments i was holding your hand
Really hope we can continue our journey , hand to hand forever

All the best for your exam tml...
Study harder tonight!!!

Hide and seek

Sometimes playing hide and seek is not a bad idea..
Especially play with you...
It reminds me the feeling of courting someone...
It's the combination feeling of shy,exciting, happy and nervous.
Seriously, sometimes i prefer this feeling to last longer...
When we're in a relationship, we often lost the feeling of shyness and nervousness...
We only feel happy and exciting...

When looking at you from outside the kfc, it reminds me of this feeling...
I don't know why i felt shy and nervous when looking at you...
OMG...
But i like this kind of feeling...

Thank you.
...
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By the way, what u doing here chee hoe?
Aren't you suppose to be revising your FST paper in lib?
Time up, dude..
See ya next time..

Start of sem and end of holidays

Wow, it was fast...
Two weeks has already passed in a split of time...
I wondered what i did in these two weeks...

Calling company and writing resume for internship?...nope..
Calling company and asking for food fair participation?...not really...
Hangout with my long lost uni mate(approximately 3months though)?....not at all..lolz...

As always, i usually don't start my reading on the first two weeks of sem..
And this sem is no exception too..
Time to say bye bye to my holidays edi...(though i should say it out 2weeks ago...)

Maybe this sem is a bit different as i need to split my time on both studies and relationship...
And this sem i have a new challenge as well... Accounting... but i think i can handle it even though i had skipped all 3/4 of its classes so far...i trust myself though...

Financially, i think i can survive without working until end of August i think...
I still think if i didn't go for Thai trip, i would have 1.5k spare to use...haiz....worked so hard whole sem and then used all in just 7days....T.T

What else i should said leh....
hmm...
oh ya..
When i writing this blog, someone msg me...
There is always things that we want to do and we need to do...
we need to differentiate it very clearly...
When we promise and agree on something, we have the responsibility to do it..
That's why i hardly put myself in certain position or giving commitment...
I would rather put myself to be in a more playful mood than those serious-bastard looking.
Time to put an end to this...need to fetch someone and i still haven bath..T.T
3pm edi... and i'll be late again..haha

Weird things do happened sometimes 2

This is the second half of my 1st week...
As i said, things usually don't happen as you like them to do so...
Things started brilliantly...
She accompanied me to fetch my uni best fren aka dailou at Bkt Jalil...
That's the very first time i bring her to see my friends....
There's still more to come...u must prepare o..
I can feel that she very uncomfortable as she seems so quiet..
sorry dear, i shouldn't brought you along at the first place...
We had a wonderful day with some small shopping and a movie...
Predators was nt a bad movie but for me, it's lack of creativity and actions as well...
When we having dinner at pan mee bkt serdang, how LUCKY we are to encounter my course mate again... overall a good day for both of us.

But things got out of control after Sunday...
She having meeting and practice throughout this week...
haiz... i guess i cant complaint much about her activities though..
What i can do for her is just stay beside her when she needs me,
and always support her...
What a little man i can be...
Chee hoe ar chee hoe...
When u start to become a house-man?
that's so unlike you...
Where's the chee hoe i knew b4 this?( die liao)

When someone have so much free time, he usually thinks alot...
Especially when that guy have so much imagination power like me...
For the first few days, i personally thinks that we have communication problems...
But now these problems has solved, at least in this mean time..
Many friends of mine told me that we're from different part of the world...
But i shall prove them all wrong...

I believe that when we have faith and trust on each other...
Everything will be solve...

She said she is changing to become more lady like...
but does she notice that i'm changing too...
She won't notice what i changed but friends around me begins to tell me so...
Love is so powerful....

Since this weekend she's nt free to accompany me,
i decided to work out of boredom and financial crisis( thai trip really did paralyzed my spending power)
Is this fate?
On friday, she told me that this weekend she's nt having practice this weekend...
and i miss the chance to be with her again...
I really hope i can stay with you this weekend...
I really do

Miss you~

Weird things do happened sometimes

1st week of my semester...
Things usually do not start as u like...
I would prefer a more comfortable week and sharing ur wonderful stories with your long lost friends...
but instead ending up of...
hunting for my P.A signature and busy adjusting this sem timetable
My little Rose is a busy women...
She had meeting from day till night...
This sem she has been promoted, congratulation o.. muacks..
But pls take care of ur little boy oso lar...
At least give him a chance to have ur signature since he likes you so much(actually she's lucky that i dont hate her after fst4829)
My last resort..
Put the overcredit paper at her box...
And the next day, she didn't sign it but wrote there, "you cant take 21credit coz u're not final year student"..
I was like wth...
You all know my attitude..
If i don't satisfied with something, i'll fight for it
But she even give me a chance to speak to her...
Chee hoe, u're so cham...pity you
Anyhow, i tried my luck...
I went to her room which written "TIADA"
and start knocking"kok,kok.kok"
After 10sec,when i was starting to walk away, she answered," who is that"
Suddenly i can see a ray of light flashing on top of my head,
"Thank god" my heart told me...
When i trying to argue from my point of view, without hesitating, she signed for me...
I was like....!!! So easy...
Anyhow my ACT class haven't manage to register yet due to quota and lecturer problems..sigh!

This sem my timetable ending up to be totally same as AMY and EVE...
Hope everything is alright...
Amy is a nice girl but dunno why so many course-mates don't like her attitude...
Or perhaps i should interact more with her b4 doing this evaluation...
No comment to EVE...

I ending my academic week with a bang...
I skipped two of my friday class...
Just to work...
Money minded?
I will tell you the reason in the next blog about...

Worst experience in my life

This experience tells me to study hard for my future if i wouldn't want to spend the next 30yrs doing this kinda job.

Read10 aka Malaysia Book Fair is from 4th to 13th June...
There is where my day-mare begins...
On the 2 and 3rd June, we need to set up the booth and arrange all the books before the fair starts...
Maple aka fat greedy supervisor was already there when we reached....
This name is not simply given... i had done a long survey and experiment...
And its proven that she simply couldn't resist food temptation...

At first i thought it was an easy job..
Start with cleaning the rack.. wow.. piece of cake
Soon, things started...
Maybe i don't know Chinese so Maple so against me...
The heavier the things to move the better it was for her..
I was ordered to open boxes alone and arranged them according to different publiser...
While others working in pairs or groups, i was lonely starring at them...
Imagine alone moving bout 400boxes and each weighed bout 4okg each...
My upper body are quite ok but my lower body felt the pain due to continuous squatting, standing and shifting...
Is like ur ass canned 50times in ancient Chinese Dynasty...
When u sit down, u can feel the pain on ur hamstring...It lasts for 3days..zz

Do you think they treat me so nice by letting me go without asking me to unfold all the opened boxes?
And the c2pid boss asked me to arranged the books at the area which blocked the lorry to enter...
Obviously is my duty to moved them to another side...
I dunno why it cant be arranged directly from the boxes to the table and need to underwent so many procedures...
And its dun have HACCP or any ISO cert too...

"If i know u don't know Chinese, I wouldn't even think of hiring you", fat ass told me
I replied" If i know you're this fat, i wouldn't even think of working here"

Of coz, i only reply her through my blue tooth signal...
Luckily she didn't on it...