Just a reply

Today i waited the whole day for your reply...
Is it asking a greeting msg is too much for you?
Is I demanding too much from you?
I'm not asking you to skip your meetings and classes, arguing with your parents...
Neither asked you to do something against your own principals...

And the next moment u sent me a msg...
And what you expect me to tell you?
Is that only girls have the right to be moody?
Today I'm not stable emotionally but why must I have to act like nothing in front of you?
Easily, i can hug and cried in front of you now...
I know you have alot of works to do...
That's why i dont want to burden you further with my feeling...
I dont even dare to tell you...

I'd tried my best to satisfied all your needs...
But I'm a human,
I'll get tired too...

I really need someone to share my feeling now and i know it can be you...
Probably you're right person at the wrong time...

Why we need to care?

Human beings are an extraordinary species...

Often, they would like ppl to agree and accept their action and opinion...

Sometimes they care too much on others' opinion and neglected their own feelings...

They willing to change their attitude, lifestyle and even themselves, just to meet others expectation...

Things started to come across my head...

Are we living for ourselves or we lived for others?

What's the purpose of examination?

Why must we be following the trend and not creating a trend of our own?

And why do we really need to care about others opinion?

Are they really more important than yourself?

We, human, lived for ourselves and for others as well,

We cant live by ourselves nor within our own restricted boundaries...

We need to learn to accept, screen and integrated others opinion into ourselves.

That's what will make an identity of own...

Please answer it to yourself,

Are you living up to the expectation that bears on your name,

the name that symbolizes your identity...

Bears on your mind that

those expectation that you think people have on you,

it just another thought of yours

just a small pieces of jigsaw of a bigger picture,

Don't be so sure of your thought,

You'll never know the truth unless you go and find them out...

You inspired me

Sometimes i been wondered, thinking and considering...
What i done,did and will do is it really necessary?
After reading your blog, it reminds me again...

Though its been a little late, but i want to respond back to you too...
Though i might not felt the same as you, but sometimes i cant denied that i do enjoy the time we have been spent together...
Though we become friend not long ago, but its our interaction that bonds us to be good friends...

Perhaps i should said that i already considered you as one of my best friend.
Its not time that measures depth of a relationship..
Its the feeling that bond us together...
The way we talked and shared our studies, gossip and problems...
Perhaps that what makes you stand out among other friend of mine...

But i know clearly what feeling that you're giving me.
It differ from her.
I wished to care,protect and share my problems with her.
But with you, i wished you to motivate, challenge and make me laugh.
Perhaps we should said that a friendship do differ from a relationship.
We both know that i love her a lot.
But we also know that i'm always risking myself hurting her.
I really appreciate the way you motivated me to study and revise.
Or can said that, i always hope there will be someone i can chat with when i feel bored.
I don't like the feeling of lonely. Pls dont come find me...

I never avoids you on purpose...
But we know clearly that i have a new responsibility and obligation,
that i must carry on.

Perhaps all the blames should on me alone...
The way i approaching and treating people is a bit extraordinary,
I may look humorous, i may do silly things
But i do treat my friend with heart,
I'm not a two-face people and i dont like to keep things in heart.
I always do things the way i liked...
That's me.

I guessed it should be clearer now though.
And you really inspired me of what she failed to.

Distance relationship

A relationship,
A distance beyond reach of hands...
Separating a lovely couple...
Since small, i have dreamed of having a long distance relationship....
Not that far la, about 100-200 from KL should be ok la.
I dreamed of having a romantic candle light dinner with you on your birthday...
When you are sick or unhappy, i will just drive to your hometown just to see your little smile..
You may think how fool i was but i willing to change the whole world just to make you happy again...

I'll make sure that whenever you need me, I'll be just sitting beside you...
Silently hugging you close to my shoulder,
"Everything will be just fine,dear"
"I'm here with you to face it together" while holding her shoulder tight...

Until now, i have the same dream over and over again....
and I can see your face now...
I really hope you were mine...

But can i really melt your heart,
I questioned myself over and over again,
I know I'm the author of my own story,
But I don't have the copyright to put you into it...

Feeling is same as sand on the beaches....
No matter how hard you hold on them,
When you put your hand into the sea, sea of time
It will just flow away...

But don't you ever forget,
No matter how hard the water flow,
If you grip on them tightly,
There is always some left on you...