You inspired me

Sometimes i been wondered, thinking and considering...
What i done,did and will do is it really necessary?
After reading your blog, it reminds me again...

Though its been a little late, but i want to respond back to you too...
Though i might not felt the same as you, but sometimes i cant denied that i do enjoy the time we have been spent together...
Though we become friend not long ago, but its our interaction that bonds us to be good friends...

Perhaps i should said that i already considered you as one of my best friend.
Its not time that measures depth of a relationship..
Its the feeling that bond us together...
The way we talked and shared our studies, gossip and problems...
Perhaps that what makes you stand out among other friend of mine...

But i know clearly what feeling that you're giving me.
It differ from her.
I wished to care,protect and share my problems with her.
But with you, i wished you to motivate, challenge and make me laugh.
Perhaps we should said that a friendship do differ from a relationship.
We both know that i love her a lot.
But we also know that i'm always risking myself hurting her.
I really appreciate the way you motivated me to study and revise.
Or can said that, i always hope there will be someone i can chat with when i feel bored.
I don't like the feeling of lonely. Pls dont come find me...

I never avoids you on purpose...
But we know clearly that i have a new responsibility and obligation,
that i must carry on.

Perhaps all the blames should on me alone...
The way i approaching and treating people is a bit extraordinary,
I may look humorous, i may do silly things
But i do treat my friend with heart,
I'm not a two-face people and i dont like to keep things in heart.
I always do things the way i liked...
That's me.

I guessed it should be clearer now though.
And you really inspired me of what she failed to.

I did it again...

I did it again...
Yesterday night, she cried again.
Sigh..
Let me count.
I think this is the 4th times i make her cried ( for this short period of time together, i think she cried about 5 times)

First time she cried because i was flew to Thailand for a trip.
To be frank, i didn't mean to send a touching msg to make her cry purposely.
I'm just expressing my feeling.
When we having a phone conversation at airport, she cried.
She really made me having a heavy heart to go there( though i was away for 6days only)
It was the first time i actually felt that someone really care about me.
If I'm going to leave this world at anytime,
i know that there will be at least 4ppl crying for me ( my family member and her)

The second time i saw her crying was the time i driving her back to KL from Ipoh,
Back then, she was sharing her past experience with me.
She cried when mentioning about her daddy's incident.
I was driving that time on highway and she was crying...
What can i do?
All i can was just using my left hand to mop away her tears...
and then grabbed her hand,"I'm here with you now"
I really meant it.

The third and the fourth time, she was crying over the phone again.
And due to the same problem and same person.
I promised that i will nvr do it again.
Guess what, i actually felt happy that you had such reaction...
Not that i'm a physco or what,
I just felt that you cared me so much...
I really appreciate the moments i was holding your hand
Really hope we can continue our journey , hand to hand forever

All the best for your exam tml...
Study harder tonight!!!

Hide and seek

Sometimes playing hide and seek is not a bad idea..
Especially play with you...
It reminds me the feeling of courting someone...
It's the combination feeling of shy,exciting, happy and nervous.
Seriously, sometimes i prefer this feeling to last longer...
When we're in a relationship, we often lost the feeling of shyness and nervousness...
We only feel happy and exciting...

When looking at you from outside the kfc, it reminds me of this feeling...
I don't know why i felt shy and nervous when looking at you...
OMG...
But i like this kind of feeling...

Thank you.
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By the way, what u doing here chee hoe?
Aren't you suppose to be revising your FST paper in lib?
Time up, dude..
See ya next time..