Doomed

Since when i have this feeling?
Probably after coming back from SP trip...
I felt down, moody and despair...
I dunno where these kinda feeling came from but it's sure followed me for quite some time now...

First day after holiday, i was told that i will having 3tests next week...
Therefore, i had rejected a sampling job for this weekend so that i have time to prepare for these 3tests and present for our anniversary...
After changed my mobile and seek medical advice from doctor in SP, my bank book showed less than hundreds...
In addition to that, my supervisor called me few days ago that my payment for last event job had some problems and had to be delayed...
Oh god, I really need money urgently... Can someone pls help me?

At the middle of the midnight, i received your call, and we spent almost 3hours in hospital....
Government hospital really lived up to its name...
They crawled in the emergency lobby... Totally inefficient and ineffective...
They just prescribed her the same medicine she got it from the previous doctor without doing any further inspection...
Then what's the difference from buying medicine in pharmacies???

Today is not my day.
I spent an hour starring at the ACT tutorial answers....
I laughed...
My mind totally blank...
Then i spent another 2hours in FST3113 class...
Starring at Dr.SK face....
Blank again...

It seems like i was not at the same pace as most of my course mates...
Or should i?
I looked dumb...
Even though, i have decided to skip the coming food law class at 2pm..^^
I really need something to motivate and energize me...
I'm down

Why we need to care?

Human beings are an extraordinary species...

Often, they would like ppl to agree and accept their action and opinion...

Sometimes they care too much on others' opinion and neglected their own feelings...

They willing to change their attitude, lifestyle and even themselves, just to meet others expectation...

Things started to come across my head...

Are we living for ourselves or we lived for others?

What's the purpose of examination?

Why must we be following the trend and not creating a trend of our own?

And why do we really need to care about others opinion?

Are they really more important than yourself?

We, human, lived for ourselves and for others as well,

We cant live by ourselves nor within our own restricted boundaries...

We need to learn to accept, screen and integrated others opinion into ourselves.

That's what will make an identity of own...

Please answer it to yourself,

Are you living up to the expectation that bears on your name,

the name that symbolizes your identity...

Bears on your mind that

those expectation that you think people have on you,

it just another thought of yours

just a small pieces of jigsaw of a bigger picture,

Don't be so sure of your thought,

You'll never know the truth unless you go and find them out...