Comeback!

It's 1.41 a.m on a working Tuesday.

Its been 3 years since I last posted on my blog and guess what, I'm back to blogging again!!!

Well, all the while i know that long distance relationship is tough to manage and I BELIEVE that
i was able to handle it well (at least for 1.5 years to date). But if she is not the one you used to love
anymore, would it be worth to continue waiting for a bird that don't know how to land?

I still remember deeply in my heart how sweet she was and how lovely we can be before she left me.
She promised to come back after 6 months.

I waited....

After 6 months, she promised again will come back in years time.

I waited...

And now, she promised to come back without a specific time frame...

I still continue to wait...

Every night I have waited for your call and allocate the specific time slot for her. Sometimes she will be
early and sometimes she will be late.

I waited.

Sometimes she might not even call. But she did not inform me that she have things to do...

The naive part of me still waited for her call until late night.

I tried to do my best for both of us.

But when you are not the one I used to love, is it worth while to continue waiting for you. I know you're
tired but so do I.

The clock is ticking and I can't see our future. I heard the melody again...

1.55 a.m.

Different Identity, Same Xmas~

Seriously, how come by any chance, I'm still staying inside my room now...

Facing my 3yrs old laptop...

Both my parents are asleep b4 the clock ticks to 10...

My little bro has grown up....

He is celebrating this day with his friends,

Of coz, they're not lonely...

Thousands are accompanying them by honing and shouting in the chaotic jam~

If you're under 12, make sure u censored the 4 letters word....

I'm wondering now, does it make any difference in X'mas if you in a relationship or remain single?

Almost exactly a year ago,

I'm single, facing this problems too

A lonely X'mas...

How lonely?

Imagine if u can listen to ur next door TV programme and mosquito flying around....

That's quite sad...

3 out of 4 in my gang are with their another half nw~

Even Mr. Single Tha abandoned me~

Not a single friend invite me out this year...

I wondered what happened...

I really want to drive to Ipoh and find my gf nw~

But she has outing with her family...

So it's better for me to stay home...ALONE...

Anyway, having a slight headache...

Blue Eve....

Working X'mas~

Need to work tml w/o double payment~

Day 5- Expiry Day

To all my friend out there,

I'm going to leave the world very soon.

I just found out that i have a birth on my right hand.

It stated that i will expired on Jan 11,

which means that i left another 1month in this world.

But at least God gave me the chance to meet you all...

I have no regrets.

So long my friends...

Day-4 Slacking Day

It's Saturday today and we need to work...T.T

Seriously i don't like to work and moreover i don't like to work on Sat!!!

But no choice, even it's Sat, we need to be cheap labor for the sake of our future...

coz...

GREAT ACHIEVEMENT DOESN'T COME WITHOUT SACRIFICING!!!

But today is an exception...

This is the day without our Supervisor Adi and Ms.Chong and we are free to do whatever we wanted...

But of course we fully utilize the time to rest our body for later night activities.

On this day, we just do some product inspection and do our report.

Particularly a relaxing day~

The only disappointment of the day is i took a wrong turn and ended up in Duta toll instead of Sg. Buloh toll which costs me 30minutes of precious time.

Thank to that BLOODY Lorry that i FAILED to overtake it...

I admit my failure and DEFEAT this time...

SALUTE!

Day-3 Injection day!

After a hectic and energy consuming day 1, all return to normal now...

Seriously, human is a very weird creature...

When you have work to do, you'll complain...

When you don't have work to do, you'll complain too...

What kind of world is this?

Anyhow, after i mistakely lied to my supervisor that i took typhoid injection during the day 1, i was asked to take it today along with my buddy, CS,

I really have no intention de...

At first i thought that the injection i took during my study week was typhoid, but it ended up as tetanus.

I wondered why food handler need to take so many injection.

Food handlers aren't food thought it starts with "food"

We no need so many "additive" and "ingredient"

And the worst part is...

I don't even know what the purpose of the injection i was having...

At least i took some initiative to search the meaning in wikipedia.

"Typhoid fever is a serious disease that can cause death. It is caused by a germ called Salmonella typhi and is spread most often through infected food or water. Typhoid may also be spread by close person-to-person contact with infected persons (such as occurs with per

sons living in the same household). Some infected persons do not appear to be sick, but they can still spread the germ to others" (annoymous,xxxx)

Basically it said that this disease transferred through feces...LOL

At least i learnt something today,

Anyway, this injection numbs my shoulder for few hours,

it's stronger than Tetanus..o.0

Cs said it's due to the 90 degree penetration through our hand rather than 45degree..

What a gread doctor,

He actually tried to scatter my attention by talking to me.

And he managed to did it!

This is his clinic...

Actually i think part of his reason is because he used to inject for Nepalese and perhaps Nepalese don't feel much pain...

Think twice before u go to this clinic.

At least it's free...

2nd Day

After a exhausting first day, I had a boring second day.

I know that my job is boring but i don't know that it so boring to the extend that i can fall asleep when i was inspecting the product ( in standing mode)

This is a new experience for me, I experience many fall asleep before like:-

half asleep during driving

playing dota

having phone conversation

having examination

having lecture in class and

doing experiment in lab

I have developed a new formula to do my work today too. In every hr, my job consists of

doing report (10min for every 30min), goin to toilet (5min), chatting and slacking (15min); and inspecting product (20min).

That's how every hrs is spent during a day. A boring life that need to last for 6months

My supervisor, Eddy did promised me that i'll have a different working routine next week

But who knows...

I need to find more time to slack...

I need to fully utilize my creativity in any circumstances...

My First Day

I guessed i had the best first day internship experiences compared to most of my friends....

I think i shall start it from the the time i wake up.

Well, as usual, i waked up at 6am and finish preparing myself at 645.

Cs reached my home at 7 and we went together.

Since school is still having holidays, NKVE is no

t having much traffic jam and we managed to sneak into our main entrance by 730.

We waited for 1hrs to be arranged to see our supervisor, Ms. Chong aka ass. QA manager. But before this, one very good question came across my mind.

"Everyone do the same routine day in day out. How do you perform yourself above others if you're asked to do the same routine everyday?"

I really think how to get promotion from the moment i stepped into the main entrance.

I don't want to wait until my supervisor,manager or head department transferred or retired only then i have the chance to go for a higher post.

Clock ticked sharp at 103o, we are brought to walk around the factory by Eddy, a good supervisor under a mean QC assistant. I was

asked to stay in the production line while Cs do her works in QC room. I guessed guys should be more suited with machine and processing anyway.

Things changed soon after...

R&D called me to the office.

Without much hesitation, i accepted the offer to follow them out.

I'm very curious to go.

It's one of very rare chances that i can go out from the factory.

A silver colored Myvi waiting me outside the factory.

Stephanie is the name for the driver.

Along the journey to Rawang, she shared alot of interesting experience with me.

And of course, the main reason for outing that day.

Finally, after 40min of driving, I reached the land of cocoa.

The Cocoaland!!!

Soon after we begin our journey...

Act as an human shaker, our mission is to shake every bottle of suspected drinks and

scan throught it with our unaided eyes.

Of course, I, went there as an R&D member, need to supervise a bunch of Nepalese ppl too.

Some are picnicking there and some dating.

We not only need to teach them but to hurry them too.

And our group is joined by another MDD sales manager, Mr.Phang after the lunch.

He taught me about 4I in MDD that i must know.

4I=Integrity,Involvement, Intensity, Innovative.

But I only can think about 3H

3H=Hungry, Hurry and Hot.

Together 3 of us, work till 830pm at night. ( my very first OT in MDD)

Am i considered lucky? Three of us had our dinner with MDD brand manager.

Our dinner is the famous fish noodles in Rawang, advertised my Ho chiak before..^^

This is the first time i eat such an odd combination. But it actually not bad at all.

My very first day in Mamee,

A valuable experience that i gained this day has changed my perspective on future once again.

Mr.Phang has taught me some valuable lesson in life that I must not forget.

Ms.Stephanie too.

Next week I'll try to ask to transferred to R&D department if it's possible.

^^

New Challenge

Wow, it's been so long since my last post...

A 1-months plus break in blogging...

It's been so long.

I guessed if my gf around me, i wont have any time to blog either.

My Internship starting tml.

This is the first time i work or go to a new place without any stress or nervous.

I feel calm and confident.

According to source,

I'll just measuring the instrument temperature and sending report.

Without any negative feeling,

I think i can explore the opportunity there.

It would be best if they allow me to do department rotation.

I would like to learn as much as possible and decide on my future.

Whether i like laboratory or office work.

They didnt explain properly on our working days.

It is best if saturday only a half-day work or alternative week working.

If alternative week, i can do some part -time job.

If half-day, i might starts doing my web business.

I still havent decide on the business.

I'm afraid this business becoming more saturated with supply more than demand.

But i need to do something for my future.

I need to do some investment for future.

Haiz, life's unpredictable...

I don't like to trap in rat race forever.

I must use this opportunity to foresee my future.

I must explore it this time.

Tale of a weirdo

I have a friend...
A weird friend i mean,
She told me that she dunno where is Pavillion, Starhill, Tenji or even Jogoya...
My first reaction was, " Omg, where u come from?"

Hard to believe i have so much weirdo frens around me...
She definitely one of them,
She always get bullied by me and yet still come to me in hope of getting more...
God, pls save her from me....

Frankly speaking, she is a good fren of mine.
Every time,without fail, she lending me a helping hand when i in need of her(delivery,photocopy, signature mimicking)

What a good fren she is...
But we all know good ppl usually get bullied...
Why you still so kind?
Learn to protect yourself
and grow stronger so ppl wont able to bully you again...

Just a reply

Today i waited the whole day for your reply...
Is it asking a greeting msg is too much for you?
Is I demanding too much from you?
I'm not asking you to skip your meetings and classes, arguing with your parents...
Neither asked you to do something against your own principals...

And the next moment u sent me a msg...
And what you expect me to tell you?
Is that only girls have the right to be moody?
Today I'm not stable emotionally but why must I have to act like nothing in front of you?
Easily, i can hug and cried in front of you now...
I know you have alot of works to do...
That's why i dont want to burden you further with my feeling...
I dont even dare to tell you...

I'd tried my best to satisfied all your needs...
But I'm a human,
I'll get tired too...

I really need someone to share my feeling now and i know it can be you...
Probably you're right person at the wrong time...

Doomed

Since when i have this feeling?
Probably after coming back from SP trip...
I felt down, moody and despair...
I dunno where these kinda feeling came from but it's sure followed me for quite some time now...

First day after holiday, i was told that i will having 3tests next week...
Therefore, i had rejected a sampling job for this weekend so that i have time to prepare for these 3tests and present for our anniversary...
After changed my mobile and seek medical advice from doctor in SP, my bank book showed less than hundreds...
In addition to that, my supervisor called me few days ago that my payment for last event job had some problems and had to be delayed...
Oh god, I really need money urgently... Can someone pls help me?

At the middle of the midnight, i received your call, and we spent almost 3hours in hospital....
Government hospital really lived up to its name...
They crawled in the emergency lobby... Totally inefficient and ineffective...
They just prescribed her the same medicine she got it from the previous doctor without doing any further inspection...
Then what's the difference from buying medicine in pharmacies???

Today is not my day.
I spent an hour starring at the ACT tutorial answers....
I laughed...
My mind totally blank...
Then i spent another 2hours in FST3113 class...
Starring at Dr.SK face....
Blank again...

It seems like i was not at the same pace as most of my course mates...
Or should i?
I looked dumb...
Even though, i have decided to skip the coming food law class at 2pm..^^
I really need something to motivate and energize me...
I'm down

Why we need to care?

Human beings are an extraordinary species...

Often, they would like ppl to agree and accept their action and opinion...

Sometimes they care too much on others' opinion and neglected their own feelings...

They willing to change their attitude, lifestyle and even themselves, just to meet others expectation...

Things started to come across my head...

Are we living for ourselves or we lived for others?

What's the purpose of examination?

Why must we be following the trend and not creating a trend of our own?

And why do we really need to care about others opinion?

Are they really more important than yourself?

We, human, lived for ourselves and for others as well,

We cant live by ourselves nor within our own restricted boundaries...

We need to learn to accept, screen and integrated others opinion into ourselves.

That's what will make an identity of own...

Please answer it to yourself,

Are you living up to the expectation that bears on your name,

the name that symbolizes your identity...

Bears on your mind that

those expectation that you think people have on you,

it just another thought of yours

just a small pieces of jigsaw of a bigger picture,

Don't be so sure of your thought,

You'll never know the truth unless you go and find them out...

You inspired me

Sometimes i been wondered, thinking and considering...
What i done,did and will do is it really necessary?
After reading your blog, it reminds me again...

Though its been a little late, but i want to respond back to you too...
Though i might not felt the same as you, but sometimes i cant denied that i do enjoy the time we have been spent together...
Though we become friend not long ago, but its our interaction that bonds us to be good friends...

Perhaps i should said that i already considered you as one of my best friend.
Its not time that measures depth of a relationship..
Its the feeling that bond us together...
The way we talked and shared our studies, gossip and problems...
Perhaps that what makes you stand out among other friend of mine...

But i know clearly what feeling that you're giving me.
It differ from her.
I wished to care,protect and share my problems with her.
But with you, i wished you to motivate, challenge and make me laugh.
Perhaps we should said that a friendship do differ from a relationship.
We both know that i love her a lot.
But we also know that i'm always risking myself hurting her.
I really appreciate the way you motivated me to study and revise.
Or can said that, i always hope there will be someone i can chat with when i feel bored.
I don't like the feeling of lonely. Pls dont come find me...

I never avoids you on purpose...
But we know clearly that i have a new responsibility and obligation,
that i must carry on.

Perhaps all the blames should on me alone...
The way i approaching and treating people is a bit extraordinary,
I may look humorous, i may do silly things
But i do treat my friend with heart,
I'm not a two-face people and i dont like to keep things in heart.
I always do things the way i liked...
That's me.

I guessed it should be clearer now though.
And you really inspired me of what she failed to.

I did it again...

I did it again...
Yesterday night, she cried again.
Sigh..
Let me count.
I think this is the 4th times i make her cried ( for this short period of time together, i think she cried about 5 times)

First time she cried because i was flew to Thailand for a trip.
To be frank, i didn't mean to send a touching msg to make her cry purposely.
I'm just expressing my feeling.
When we having a phone conversation at airport, she cried.
She really made me having a heavy heart to go there( though i was away for 6days only)
It was the first time i actually felt that someone really care about me.
If I'm going to leave this world at anytime,
i know that there will be at least 4ppl crying for me ( my family member and her)

The second time i saw her crying was the time i driving her back to KL from Ipoh,
Back then, she was sharing her past experience with me.
She cried when mentioning about her daddy's incident.
I was driving that time on highway and she was crying...
What can i do?
All i can was just using my left hand to mop away her tears...
and then grabbed her hand,"I'm here with you now"
I really meant it.

The third and the fourth time, she was crying over the phone again.
And due to the same problem and same person.
I promised that i will nvr do it again.
Guess what, i actually felt happy that you had such reaction...
Not that i'm a physco or what,
I just felt that you cared me so much...
I really appreciate the moments i was holding your hand
Really hope we can continue our journey , hand to hand forever

All the best for your exam tml...
Study harder tonight!!!

Hide and seek

Sometimes playing hide and seek is not a bad idea..
Especially play with you...
It reminds me the feeling of courting someone...
It's the combination feeling of shy,exciting, happy and nervous.
Seriously, sometimes i prefer this feeling to last longer...
When we're in a relationship, we often lost the feeling of shyness and nervousness...
We only feel happy and exciting...

When looking at you from outside the kfc, it reminds me of this feeling...
I don't know why i felt shy and nervous when looking at you...
OMG...
But i like this kind of feeling...

Thank you.
...
...
...
By the way, what u doing here chee hoe?
Aren't you suppose to be revising your FST paper in lib?
Time up, dude..
See ya next time..

Start of sem and end of holidays

Wow, it was fast...
Two weeks has already passed in a split of time...
I wondered what i did in these two weeks...

Calling company and writing resume for internship?...nope..
Calling company and asking for food fair participation?...not really...
Hangout with my long lost uni mate(approximately 3months though)?....not at all..lolz...

As always, i usually don't start my reading on the first two weeks of sem..
And this sem is no exception too..
Time to say bye bye to my holidays edi...(though i should say it out 2weeks ago...)

Maybe this sem is a bit different as i need to split my time on both studies and relationship...
And this sem i have a new challenge as well... Accounting... but i think i can handle it even though i had skipped all 3/4 of its classes so far...i trust myself though...

Financially, i think i can survive without working until end of August i think...
I still think if i didn't go for Thai trip, i would have 1.5k spare to use...haiz....worked so hard whole sem and then used all in just 7days....T.T

What else i should said leh....
hmm...
oh ya..
When i writing this blog, someone msg me...
There is always things that we want to do and we need to do...
we need to differentiate it very clearly...
When we promise and agree on something, we have the responsibility to do it..
That's why i hardly put myself in certain position or giving commitment...
I would rather put myself to be in a more playful mood than those serious-bastard looking.
Time to put an end to this...need to fetch someone and i still haven bath..T.T
3pm edi... and i'll be late again..haha

Weird things do happened sometimes 2

This is the second half of my 1st week...
As i said, things usually don't happen as you like them to do so...
Things started brilliantly...
She accompanied me to fetch my uni best fren aka dailou at Bkt Jalil...
That's the very first time i bring her to see my friends....
There's still more to come...u must prepare o..
I can feel that she very uncomfortable as she seems so quiet..
sorry dear, i shouldn't brought you along at the first place...
We had a wonderful day with some small shopping and a movie...
Predators was nt a bad movie but for me, it's lack of creativity and actions as well...
When we having dinner at pan mee bkt serdang, how LUCKY we are to encounter my course mate again... overall a good day for both of us.

But things got out of control after Sunday...
She having meeting and practice throughout this week...
haiz... i guess i cant complaint much about her activities though..
What i can do for her is just stay beside her when she needs me,
and always support her...
What a little man i can be...
Chee hoe ar chee hoe...
When u start to become a house-man?
that's so unlike you...
Where's the chee hoe i knew b4 this?( die liao)

When someone have so much free time, he usually thinks alot...
Especially when that guy have so much imagination power like me...
For the first few days, i personally thinks that we have communication problems...
But now these problems has solved, at least in this mean time..
Many friends of mine told me that we're from different part of the world...
But i shall prove them all wrong...

I believe that when we have faith and trust on each other...
Everything will be solve...

She said she is changing to become more lady like...
but does she notice that i'm changing too...
She won't notice what i changed but friends around me begins to tell me so...
Love is so powerful....

Since this weekend she's nt free to accompany me,
i decided to work out of boredom and financial crisis( thai trip really did paralyzed my spending power)
Is this fate?
On friday, she told me that this weekend she's nt having practice this weekend...
and i miss the chance to be with her again...
I really hope i can stay with you this weekend...
I really do

Miss you~

Weird things do happened sometimes

1st week of my semester...
Things usually do not start as u like...
I would prefer a more comfortable week and sharing ur wonderful stories with your long lost friends...
but instead ending up of...
hunting for my P.A signature and busy adjusting this sem timetable
My little Rose is a busy women...
She had meeting from day till night...
This sem she has been promoted, congratulation o.. muacks..
But pls take care of ur little boy oso lar...
At least give him a chance to have ur signature since he likes you so much(actually she's lucky that i dont hate her after fst4829)
My last resort..
Put the overcredit paper at her box...
And the next day, she didn't sign it but wrote there, "you cant take 21credit coz u're not final year student"..
I was like wth...
You all know my attitude..
If i don't satisfied with something, i'll fight for it
But she even give me a chance to speak to her...
Chee hoe, u're so cham...pity you
Anyhow, i tried my luck...
I went to her room which written "TIADA"
and start knocking"kok,kok.kok"
After 10sec,when i was starting to walk away, she answered," who is that"
Suddenly i can see a ray of light flashing on top of my head,
"Thank god" my heart told me...
When i trying to argue from my point of view, without hesitating, she signed for me...
I was like....!!! So easy...
Anyhow my ACT class haven't manage to register yet due to quota and lecturer problems..sigh!

This sem my timetable ending up to be totally same as AMY and EVE...
Hope everything is alright...
Amy is a nice girl but dunno why so many course-mates don't like her attitude...
Or perhaps i should interact more with her b4 doing this evaluation...
No comment to EVE...

I ending my academic week with a bang...
I skipped two of my friday class...
Just to work...
Money minded?
I will tell you the reason in the next blog about...

Worst experience in my life

This experience tells me to study hard for my future if i wouldn't want to spend the next 30yrs doing this kinda job.

Read10 aka Malaysia Book Fair is from 4th to 13th June...
There is where my day-mare begins...
On the 2 and 3rd June, we need to set up the booth and arrange all the books before the fair starts...
Maple aka fat greedy supervisor was already there when we reached....
This name is not simply given... i had done a long survey and experiment...
And its proven that she simply couldn't resist food temptation...

At first i thought it was an easy job..
Start with cleaning the rack.. wow.. piece of cake
Soon, things started...
Maybe i don't know Chinese so Maple so against me...
The heavier the things to move the better it was for her..
I was ordered to open boxes alone and arranged them according to different publiser...
While others working in pairs or groups, i was lonely starring at them...
Imagine alone moving bout 400boxes and each weighed bout 4okg each...
My upper body are quite ok but my lower body felt the pain due to continuous squatting, standing and shifting...
Is like ur ass canned 50times in ancient Chinese Dynasty...
When u sit down, u can feel the pain on ur hamstring...It lasts for 3days..zz

Do you think they treat me so nice by letting me go without asking me to unfold all the opened boxes?
And the c2pid boss asked me to arranged the books at the area which blocked the lorry to enter...
Obviously is my duty to moved them to another side...
I dunno why it cant be arranged directly from the boxes to the table and need to underwent so many procedures...
And its dun have HACCP or any ISO cert too...

"If i know u don't know Chinese, I wouldn't even think of hiring you", fat ass told me
I replied" If i know you're this fat, i wouldn't even think of working here"

Of coz, i only reply her through my blue tooth signal...
Luckily she didn't on it...

Last weekend

Selling eggs could be tough too...
And this time I'm not alone this time...

I have her....

But she told me she already has a boyfriend and his name is Mr. Dazs..
He told me not to disturb her anymore or else he'll melt me down...


Not to forget my closest competitor who also the best friend of all mothers...

Almost all passerby only stare at them rather my eggs...
Are they not attractive??
Probably yes though..

However, at the end of the day...
The best promoter of the day goes to...
Dang dang dang dang...

Who else would be better than him as he's the sole promoter of the pdt...
My next event job would probably be...